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Wednesday, March 18, 2009

It’s been awhile

School first. In many ways, it’s completely different then homeschooling. But in many other ways, it is exactly the same. In either situation, one has to apply his or herself and work hard to succeed. In both scenarios, I’m learning pretty much the same stuff. It’s just in a different environment.

That environment is what makes it completely different. Instead of working by myself or with siblings, I’m mixed with a very diverse population of students. For example, Driver Theory is a required class, which means that it includes those who want to be there and those who couldn’t care less. In Honors English, as well as Statistics, my classmates are the brightest in my grade.
But even with all of the different types of students, if I treat others with respect, they tend to do the same. I don’t really have problems getting along with other students.

Although, as a precaution the first day, just to keep life drama-free, I stated that “teen dating is a complete and utter waste of time.” It’s not really a fair claim to make, but it’s proven quite successful in keeping girls away. :P

I’m proud to say that 1 John 4:4 (“Greater is He who is within you…”) has proven true. I’ve held my ground. As far as influencing others, I think I’ve been somewhat successful, but not nearly as much as I’d like to. Part of it has been that it has taken some time to form relationships – but even considering that, I think I can be doing more to positively influence those around me. God has an assignment for me every day, I believe, but I think the number of times I’ve actually picked up on the opportunities less then fifteen.

Surprisingly, I’ve found that there is a large number of churched kids there. Unfortunately, going to church does not equal following Christ; and telling the difference is difficult when both blend together. The Bible Club is pretty dead – I don’t doubt that there are some legitimate Christians there, but each meeting seems to be a religious routine. The club lacks depth and half of the members lack a desire to serve God. I struggle between wanting to get out of the club and trying to find a way to ignite them with a fire for God.

Sometimes I wonder if there are others who feel the same thing I do. I wonder if there are those that, just like myself, have a desire to change the school for God but hold back from talking about it. I have identified a handful of Christians who I believe just need some encouragement and leadership – a spark – to ignite them. Fellow soldiers who just don’t know it yet. The trick is seeking God to find out how just to go about doing that.

Educationally, school isn’t bad. Most of my teachers are good, and I feel I’m being challenged much more then last year in PACyber. But I also regret taking half College Prep classes instead of all Honors. Despite what is sounds like, CP is in no way difficult. Also, I have hardly learned anything new in Spanish. I fear I’m going to lose the language before I can get to college and learn from a good teacher and with kids who want to learn the language. On the flipside, my math teacher is excellent. I also really enjoy woodworking – that’s one of the classes I wish I could have had earlier on in high school. Overall though, school is going well, and I’m glad I am here.

My last update also mentioned my sister leaving, along with my best friends tentatively moving.

Without Beth around, the family always seems incomplete. I miss her. Very much. *sigh*

On the bright side, however, I’m glad to say that my friends are still in PA – a fact that keeps me looking forward to each weekend when I can see them. I’m very thankful to God that He has allowed them to continue to be apart of my life.

Perhaps on a similar note, it’s worth noting that taking my own “teen dating” advice can be difficult at times. I’ll admit I do have feelings for an aforementioned friend, but I know that now is not God’s timing for me to be in a relationship. This clash of teenage emotions with my desire to honor God is an unpleasant feeling; but the latter desire trump the former emotions. I want to God’s plan for me, and I don’t want to jump the gun – so to speak. I hold on to Proverbs 3:5-6:

Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.

Catching up on a few other updates, I’m am:
-putting in an application to Rutter’s
-lifting for next season
-working on redesigning my website
-in the early stages of designing a website for Adams County Action
-hoping to get my license before June – something that is contingent on me having a steady job (thus the Rutter’s application)
-eager for the Gathering this June (thus the desire to get my license)
-really liking the band Tenth Avenue North

…and I am looking forward to what ever God has in store for the coming year, be it pleasant, unpleasant, or whatever, I know He uses it for my own good.

I leave you with an excerpt from Hebrews.
Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.
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Therefore let us be grateful for receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, and thus let us offer to God acceptable worship, with reverence and awe, for our God is a consuming fire.

Grace be with all of you.

-Ben

posted by discipleOfElyon at 6:50 pm  

2 Comments

  1. First off, two things that make me very excited.

    1. Gathering!!!! :D I cannot wait to see you again Ben! :D (Smeagol walk ;))

    2. Tenth Avenue North! Yessss! I love that band. :D

    As far as school goes, I’m glad to hear that you’re not having a lot of problems. Your school kind of reminds me of my college. Hehe. I don’t know how that sounds to you. I will definitely be praying for you in that respect.

    I’m sorry things have been tough for you without Beth. :( It’s hard having a member of the family leaving. Do y’all get to talk to her on a regular basis? I am glad you get to see your friends. It’s awesome that you still get to see them and that friendship is still close.

    Ben? Getting your liscense? I still remember our talks on your permit! (They’re on the vid of Ted on my facebook) Good for you! Are you going to drive down to Nashville? ;)

    Good to hear from you. :) I was just thinking you hadn’t written for a while. I’m praying for you, Ben. *hug*

    Comment by Megan — March 18, 2009 @ 7:43 pm

  2. 2 months ’till the Gathering (give or take a little)! Smeagol is bouncing around of here in excitement. ;)

    Yeah, I do get to talk to Beth periodically, which is definitely a good thing. She also came up for Thanksgiving and Christmas. So I’m thankful for those times.

    Mmhmm…License! B) Hopefully yeah actually, I want to have it by then so I can help out with the driving.

    Thanks for the prayers, they are definitely appreciated. :)

    -Ben

    Comment by Ben — March 20, 2009 @ 8:17 pm

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