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Wednesday, March 18, 2009

It’s been awhile

School first. In many ways, it’s completely different then homeschooling. But in many other ways, it is exactly the same. In either situation, one has to apply his or herself and work hard to succeed. In both scenarios, I’m learning pretty much the same stuff. It’s just in a different environment.

That environment is what makes it completely different. Instead of working by myself or with siblings, I’m mixed with a very diverse population of students. For example, Driver Theory is a required class, which means that it includes those who want to be there and those who couldn’t care less. In Honors English, as well as Statistics, my classmates are the brightest in my grade.
But even with all of the different types of students, if I treat others with respect, they tend to do the same. I don’t really have problems getting along with other students.

Although, as a precaution the first day, just to keep life drama-free, I stated that “teen dating is a complete and utter waste of time.” It’s not really a fair claim to make, but it’s proven quite successful in keeping girls away. :P

I’m proud to say that 1 John 4:4 (“Greater is He who is within you…”) has proven true. I’ve held my ground. As far as influencing others, I think I’ve been somewhat successful, but not nearly as much as I’d like to. Part of it has been that it has taken some time to form relationships – but even considering that, I think I can be doing more to positively influence those around me. God has an assignment for me every day, I believe, but I think the number of times I’ve actually picked up on the opportunities less then fifteen.

Surprisingly, I’ve found that there is a large number of churched kids there. Unfortunately, going to church does not equal following Christ; and telling the difference is difficult when both blend together. The Bible Club is pretty dead – I don’t doubt that there are some legitimate Christians there, but each meeting seems to be a religious routine. The club lacks depth and half of the members lack a desire to serve God. I struggle between wanting to get out of the club and trying to find a way to ignite them with a fire for God.

Sometimes I wonder if there are others who feel the same thing I do. I wonder if there are those that, just like myself, have a desire to change the school for God but hold back from talking about it. I have identified a handful of Christians who I believe just need some encouragement and leadership – a spark – to ignite them. Fellow soldiers who just don’t know it yet. The trick is seeking God to find out how just to go about doing that.

Educationally, school isn’t bad. Most of my teachers are good, and I feel I’m being challenged much more then last year in PACyber. But I also regret taking half College Prep classes instead of all Honors. Despite what is sounds like, CP is in no way difficult. Also, I have hardly learned anything new in Spanish. I fear I’m going to lose the language before I can get to college and learn from a good teacher and with kids who want to learn the language. On the flipside, my math teacher is excellent. I also really enjoy woodworking – that’s one of the classes I wish I could have had earlier on in high school. Overall though, school is going well, and I’m glad I am here.

My last update also mentioned my sister leaving, along with my best friends tentatively moving.

Without Beth around, the family always seems incomplete. I miss her. Very much. *sigh*

On the bright side, however, I’m glad to say that my friends are still in PA – a fact that keeps me looking forward to each weekend when I can see them. I’m very thankful to God that He has allowed them to continue to be apart of my life.

Perhaps on a similar note, it’s worth noting that taking my own “teen dating” advice can be difficult at times. I’ll admit I do have feelings for an aforementioned friend, but I know that now is not God’s timing for me to be in a relationship. This clash of teenage emotions with my desire to honor God is an unpleasant feeling; but the latter desire trump the former emotions. I want to God’s plan for me, and I don’t want to jump the gun – so to speak. I hold on to Proverbs 3:5-6:

Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.

Catching up on a few other updates, I’m am:
-putting in an application to Rutter’s
-lifting for next season
-working on redesigning my website
-in the early stages of designing a website for Adams County Action
-hoping to get my license before June – something that is contingent on me having a steady job (thus the Rutter’s application)
-eager for the Gathering this June (thus the desire to get my license)
-really liking the band Tenth Avenue North

…and I am looking forward to what ever God has in store for the coming year, be it pleasant, unpleasant, or whatever, I know He uses it for my own good.

I leave you with an excerpt from Hebrews.
Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.
[...]
Therefore let us be grateful for receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, and thus let us offer to God acceptable worship, with reverence and awe, for our God is a consuming fire.

Grace be with all of you.

-Ben

posted by discipleOfElyon at 6:50 pm  

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Class Schedule

Well, incase anyone is interested, here are my classes (in order by period) for school this year. Starts Wednesday.
[Period number in brackets. If a number repeats, then the class alternates with the others.]
CP = College Prep
H = Honors

  • [1] US History CP
  • [2] English 11 H
  • [3] Technology Ed
  • [4] Health 11
  • [4] Phys Ed
  • [4] Study Hall
  • [5-6] Spanish III
  • [7] Lunch
  • [8-9] Statistics H
  • [10] Chemistry CP
  • [11] Driver Theory
  • [11] Study Hall
  • [12] Homeroom

So…there it is. :)

posted by discipleOfElyon at 6:03 am  

Sunday, August 3, 2008

The calm before the storm…

-as posted on my blogspot-

[phew! this is a long one!]

It seems like just a few weeks ago, school was out and I had a full summer ahead of me. But now, it’s only a week until football camp starts; I feel like either the breathe before the plunge, or the calm before the storm – take your pick.

This summer has been kind of bittersweet for me. Not because anything bad has happened, but because it might be the last summer of its kind. This next school year is going to be a lot different for me.

This coming school year I’ll be going to the public school ’round here. It’s actually a pretty decent school as far as public education goes. There are several reasons behind the decision: First – ever since my family moved last year, I’ve had this feeling (I believe the Holy Spirit) that I should go to the school the next year (which would be this year). I wasn’t sure what to do about it, so I just prayed that if it was God’s will, He would make it happen. At that time, the plan was to enroll in PACYBER’s early college program and take college courses my junior and senior year.

But early this spring, the early college program was discontinued. It was primarily an act by the PA board of education to try to put cyber schools out of business – they decided that because not all schools offered early college programs, it wasn’t fair for cyber schools to do so. (>.>) PACYBER did find another way to do it…but it’s limited to one college class per semester instead of the normal 10 credits it was before.

Only 1 college class really made PACYBER a whole lot less attractive. I would have to take their normal classes for nearly all my courses. Something I wouldn’t be all too happy about. Last year the transition from homeschooling to cyberschool was easy. Too easy. The only real difficult class I had was Pre-Calc – but my teacher was so terrible (class would have averaged a failing grade were it not for the easy extra credit assignments she kept giving us) that I’m not sure if I’ll be ready to take Calc next year. I only had 5 classes; this is because my IS (instructional supervisor) thought taking more might be too hard for me (lol…my freshman year homeschooling, I took 7 classes, was on a lego robotics team, and played football. 5 classes is cake).

So from an educational standpoint, with no good co-ops around for math, and cyber school being so limited, public school seems to be the best option. But also, I’m not just going for education…I want God to use me there. Homeschooling(/cyberschool) seems so limited in actually reaching out to my peers. I have this passion in me to see kids’ lives transformed by God’s amazing love; but being at home all day, I didn’t see that many people on a daily bases.

Yet, the thought of going to public school is also terrifying. I’ll no longer be in the protection of my home. What if the work load is too much for me (especially in math)? What if I’m not the one who’s influencing my peers, but they are influencing me? or what if I’m completely missing God’s voice and this is all a mistake? Those are some of the thoughts and doubts that creep in every now and again.

But I think those thoughts are a healthy dose of encouragement to stay close to God and not let things come in between us. The future always has an uncertainty about it – but God is bigger than anything that can happen. And isn’t He who is within me greater than he who is in the world? What do I have to fear?

I guess this where the rubber meets the road. Is my faith just a bunch of talk, or is it real? I suppose this is what having faith is all about. Trusting God outside of my comfort zone. It almost feels like jumping off a cliff, praying God will pull through and be there to catch me. It’s rather terrifying, but it’s also completely awesome. I know God will be there – even if things don’t meet my expectations, God promises never to leave or forsake me.

But as big of a change as that will be, it’s not all that could change this school year. My sister is going on a year long discipleship school (Honor Academy with Teen Mania), and she leaves in two weeks (Aug 16). I’m going to really miss her. *sigh* It will be so different with her gone. =/

And if Beth leaving isn’t enough, my best friends (and I use that term very sparingly) are likely to be moving to Tennessee in the not-so-distant future. Counting Beth, it would be like 9 siblings moving away. So far I’ve been pushing the thought to the deepest corner of my mind, hoping it will just disappear. But if it doesn’t…. well, that really would not be cool.

I know God will work everything out for the good; but that doesn’t change that I’ll miss them like crazy. And if ya’ll are reading this: I love you guys! :)

That about sums up life for me right now. If you have time, I could always use some prayer…and the students at my school. Pray for God to send a revival to the Christians in that school that will then overflow to everyone else. And also, for my friends; that God would guide them and give them wisdom – and that even if times to get tough for them, they would always know God’s love through it all.

So… like I said, this summer could be the last of its kind. My sister won’t be here next summer, and tentatively, neither will my best friends. The summer after that, my other sister could be going to the Airforce Academy next year. And this next week will be the calm before the storm (or was it the breathe before the plunge?)….once football camp starts, I’ll be kept pretty busy right up into the start of school. I probably won’t be online much during that time, but if you need to get in contact with me, email or phone would be the best way as I will check both daily. And if you’ve made it this far in the post, high-five!

I’ll end with this:

Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge between us and Christ’s love for us? There is no way! Not trouble, not hard times, not hatred, not hunger, not homelessness, not bullying threats, not backstabbing, not even the worst sins listed in Scripture: “They kill us in cold blood because they hate you. We’re sitting ducks; they pick us off one by one.” None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. I’m absolutely convinced that nothing–nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable–absolutely nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us. Rom 8:35-39

I’ve got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward–to Jesus. I’m off and running, and I’m not turning back. So let’s keep focused on that goal, those of us who want everything God has for us. If any of you have something else in mind, something less than total commitment, God will clear your blurred vision–you’ll see it yet! Now that we’re on the right track, let’s stay on it. Stick with me, friends. Keep track of those you see running this same course, headed for this same goal. (Philippians 3; MSG)

Dive deep…Elyon’s strength!

-Ben

posted by admin at 10:40 pm  

Monday, July 7, 2008

Survey thing

I saw this on Abiz’s blog and thought it was pretty cool.

60 random questions:

1. What is in the back seat of your car right now? I don’t own a car.

2. When was the last time you threw up? First day of summer conditioning for football, after drinking too much water. lol

3. What’s your favorite curse word? [snorkel]

4. Name 3 people who made you smile today? FA (I think), by setting the wordfilter to change “crap” to “snorkel.” My mom, and my sisters.

5. What were you doing at 8 am this morning? At the school for football conditioning.

6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? Browsing the elyonscircle forum.

7. What will you be doing 3 hours from now? Getting ready for bed.

8. Have you ever been to a strip club? I have not. Nor do I wish to ever go to one.

9. What is the last thing you said aloud? Umm…I’m not quite sure. “I’m hungry” (Just said it).

10. What is the best ice cream flavor? Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough…or Cookies ‘n Cream

11. What was the last thing you had to drink? Water

12. What are you wearing right now? Cammo cargo shorts and a black t-shirt.

13. What was the last thing you ate? I haven’t eaten anything yet…

14. Have you bought any new clothing items this week? Nope.

15. When was the last time you ran? This morning. On bleachers. Not the fun type of running, if ya ask me.

16. What’s the last sporting event you watched? I passed by the tv while my uncles were watching tennis yesterday.

17. What’s the last thing you attended that required a ticket? Prince Caspian with my best friends.

18. Who is the last person you emailed? (checks email Sent box) um…an email to a bunch of moderators about a spammer issue being resolved.

19. Ever go camping? Aye, several times.

20. Do you have a tan? Yeah…it’s a farmer’s tan. Half way up to my arm it goes from a dark tan to white.

21. What do you prefer: Natural Sun or the Tanning Bed? Natural sun.

22. What’s the best way to tan? I don’t every try to tan. It just happens from being outside.

23. What’s your favorite drink? Water.

24. Do you drink your soda from a straw? Sometimes…it depends on the cup it’s in.

25. What did your last IM say? Umm…this is from a few days ago, but “OK”

26. Are you someone’s best friend? Aye, see number 17.

27. What are you doing tomorrow? not sure…football conditioning and then maybe to my dad’s company to work (idk if I’m working there tomorrow).

28. Where is your mom right now? I think she’s doing something in the other room.

29. Look to your left, what do you see? A door way.

30. What color is your watch? No lo tengo. I don’t have a watch…I use my phone to keep track of time.

31. What do you think of when you think of Australia? Goodday Mate!

32. Would you consider plastic surgery? Probably not.

33. What is your birthstone? *shrug*

34. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? Am I in a hurry?

35.How many kids do you want? Not sure…probably more rather than less.

36. Do you have a dog? Nope.

37. Last person you talked to on the phone? One of my sisters yesterday.

38. Have you met anyone famous? pshyea! Ted Dekker! :P

39. Any plans today? Eating.

40. How many states have you lived in? One

41. Ever go to college? I think I should probably graduate highschool first.

42. Where are you right now? In the dining room…in my house…on my house’s property.

43. Biggest annoyance in your life right now? Annoyance? Um…I don’t know.

44. Last song listened to? A praise song I don’t know the name of that my mom is playing.

45. Is that your favorite band/singer? No. lol

46. Are you allergic to anything? Nope.

47. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time? I used to have adidas sneakers I wore all the time, but after a year of use, they are kind of old, so I only wear them sometimes. The other times, I’m wearing these shoes that I have on now. I don’t know the brand.

48. Are you jealous of anyone? No…jealousy doesn’t help anything.

50. Is anyone jealous of you? I don’t know.

51. What time is it? 6:00 PM

52. Do any of your friends have children? None of my friends that are my age. Friends of the family (as in adults), yes.

53. Do you eat healthy? For the most part, yeah.

54. What do you usually do during the day? It varies a lot.

55. Do you hate anyone right now? Nope.

56. Do you use the word ‘hello’ daily? Yeah, or some sort of greeting.

57. When? When I greet someone. When else do you use a greeting?

58. How old will you be turning on your next birthday? 17

59. Have you ever been to Six Flags? Yuppers!

60. How did you get one of your scars? Last summer, some friends and I decided to ride down a hill on a sled (no snow, just tall grass). The one time, I was riding with someone else in the sled and that person fell of and sandwiched my hand to the ground as we wend down. I now have a scar on the top of my wrist from the deep brushburn….crazy as it is, the scar is in the shape of a heart.

posted by admin at 3:05 pm  

Friday, June 13, 2008

Sinner

Check this!

I’ve read the book; it’s amazing.

Sinner – Ted Dekker

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Thursday, June 5, 2008

First post!

Yeah…got my first post here. I probably won’t update this independently, but instead when I update my blog. Sometimes often, sometimes not. But check back, ’twill be updated eventually.

posted by admin at 5:38 am  

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Hello world!

Welcome to WordPress. This is your first post. Edit or delete it, then start blogging!

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